Janurary 24

Today is the 2nd year that we have to celebrate my brother Nathan going to heaven, he was placed on this earth to serve and know his testimony inspires me to say that he is one of my hero's. when everything was going wrong he would always turn it around by looking to God. he had a rough life but towards the end of it he worshiped and praised God for every moment good and bad. He wanted everyone to know that Jesus loved them no matter what. sometimes when i hear people talking about something and when they could be looking to God and saying honoring things about Him instead of talking behind peoples back, sometimes people talk about times when he would go up to random people and i would just think that he wasnt afraid to show he loved God, thats how we should be, we shouldnt hide our faith, our treasures are stored in heaven and not what people think about us on earth. i dont why but i just think that before he died that God was preparing him for heaven, God numbered his days from the start and i think God saved him from this earth. see i may be sad sometimes that he is not with us any more, i know that all his struggles are all gone and he happy rejoicing with his Savior and i know if he was here that he would say every chance he got that he would tell me and my family that if he was to go then not to mourn for him but rather be happy that he is in his final destination. the only thing i dont want to know is that if he suffered when died that would break my heart right then and there i would have to fall out crying if he layed their betwn those boulders and cried for help. that is the only thing that makes me cry when i think of him. i love him,i want him here with me but i know that he is looking down on us smiling and saying if only you could see this place you will love it. i think before Nathan died, he was ready to go, if he had stayed longer i dont know how things would have turned out i just know it was Gods will